Why??!
By: Connie J..., January 15, 2026
If I had a nickel for every time someone asked me why I did something, good or bad, I would be a millionaire.
Sometimes, it was a conscious, thought-out choice; other times, it's because I had a period of a type of mental paralyzation - caused by feeling overwhelmed.
Though it has improved; it still happens, and it can take awhile for me to really catch ahold of it and name it.
I looked back on my Advent Calendar, from this previous December. The last date I put an ornament up, was December 15. I realized a couple weeks, ago, that was the date I shut down - to get through the Holiday Season in retail.
I knew I had been struggling, throughout the year; but when I noticed that calendar, it was like a flashing red light in my face!!!
I have been trying to evaluate this last year, and my downward trend, for awhile. I was functional, went to work, etc; but all the parts of my engine were not engaging.
Ladies and gentlemen, we have a winner - overwhelmed, it is!!! I noticed I had lost my coping for that Holiday Rush - but I thought it was because I had lost my "Holiday Momentum", the last few years, being out with my surgeries, etc.
Whatever the reason - I have an official date of shutdown. Apparently, I just gave up the fight.
I have been trying to talk it through, with both myself AND my Counselor - not to make excuses; but to get to the root of it. That, is still a work in progress...
Have you had this happen to you? Some people refer to it as "spiraling", etc. Gotta say, honestly, am NOT a fan - but, here we are...
We would LOVE to hear any insight you might have. Please contact the ministry via this website; or email us at Ozer Ministries, Inc - ozerministries@att.net; or my email - Connie J... - beamererin@yahoo.com. Have a good day, and be safe!!! #ENDtheSILENCEofVIOLENCE #isityou #domesticviolenceiseverywhere #youarenotalone #doyouknow
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