Setting Yourself Up...
By: Connie J..., April 19, 2025
...for an anxiety episode; while simultaneously keeping one from happening.
I work retail with a girl, let's call her "Buffy". Each day, as she arrives, she will ask me, "Has it been busy?" Seems innocent enough, right? However, one day it hit me that she needed to assess the environment, as she came in the door. Just one of those "random epiphanies".
"Buffy" is one of my many friends that suffers from anxiety - she even took some time off, a few months ago, to try and get it under control.
It got me thinking about times when I feel anxious. Growing up, in a Domestic Violence situation, as I did - I learned EARLY ON, that my awareness of the environment around me, and the need/ability to walk gently on those proverbial eggshells could keep the peace, for at least a little while. The caveat was, you never knew just what was going to set my Father off.
Though I would love share "my theory" with "Buffy"; I don't feel compelled to, yet. Usually, that means it's time for ME to learn a new "life-lesson".
Some questions I have been asking myself, are:
1 - Do I know my "why" for this particular chain of thoughts? This sort've leads right into...
2 - What DO I have control over, in my life; and is there something I feel is particularly OUT of my control? Honestly, I can think of several situations, right off the top of my head.
Well - I see that I have some internal work to do - SURPRISE!!! I HAVE been feeling some anxiety, lately, when I face certain situations; and I guess it's time they were dealt with.
This is what living is really about, though, isn't it? Learning "Your Whys", and dealing with them, as they come up. Doesn't this seem SO MUCH BETTER than being controlled by the anxiety if you DON'T deal with it!!! Whew!!! I sure think so!!!
If this gave you any "random epiphanies", do you think it's time for YOU to ask YOUR whys??! Maybe be able to thwart some of your anxiety?
I would love to hear your insight on my thoughts...
Thank you, have a good day and be safe... #beaware #growinto2025 ##domesticviolenceiseverywhere #ENDtheSILENCEofVIOLENCE #isityou
everybodyknowsomebody #besafe
***October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month. Please share this post, no matter what month it is, to help get the word out. The Victim has to make the choice - but, "What If..." they read something you sent them, and it just "clicks"?***
*I would love the opportunity to share YOUR ideas in a Blog post. Please send them to Connie J... - beamererin@yahoo.com; or through Ozer email, ozerministries@att.net.
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